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Blocks in my Eudaimonia..

 ‘Eudaimonia’ a concept rooted in Greek philosophy, translates to living well, flourishing and signifies a state of well being that goes beyond pleasure. It means living a life of fulfillment in accordance with one’s purpose and potential! It emphasizes on finding purpose and contributing to the well being of others.

It’s a very personal process of finding this purpose and potential.. though there are some feelings of well being and trance that I have felt.. which I would like to keep feeling😊. It happens either when you are doing something meaningful or creating something meaningful. And for me, the second aspect of creation seems to have overtaken the aspect of ‘doing’.  Creation could be doing anything from scratch. And I don’t think I create anything as enjoyable as when I write something of my own. I am not judging what I write ( whether it could be classified as being good or bad), but just reiterating that the process of writing is what brings me most happiness and closest to eudaimonia for me…   

However , I have realized, theres a immense pressure of ‘how it will turn out’.. an Anticipatory anxiety, which hampers me taking the plunge into this activity. I am worried about where I will present it.. where the piece and me will be judged and how it will affect who I am 😊

But then, after sometime, I wonder what happiness has to do with all this….

Another point is that I need the right atmosphere to write. The noises from outside, cannot conflict with the inner voices. The path for the inner voice to express itself as words on the word document need to be clear! So I don’t know when the time is right.. a strict disciplined way of life, sometimes also plays a ploy in this. I feel bound to do something which I am supposed to do, and simultaneously the urge to write something also is erupting. I tend to do the prior disciplined action that I have always been doing… though I have to learn to choose the latter.

I try to bring in a format in my head before writing. Which means I need to know the ending and bring a connect with the beginning before I start writing. There are a lot of impediments to this process. They are called ‘Distractions’.  And distractions I think have become very mechanical now. I don’t even realise when and how I get distracted. Whether it be checking whatsapp, checking my emails, FB, or even starting to clean something at home! And the only way to reduce your distractions is to break the connection and keep them inaccessible. Which again is very difficult, because of the ease of accessibility! Both the internet and the home ….

I am not able to stay with a thought or the writing piece for a long time. There is verb called ‘speed’ which is inbuilt in me. I have always tried to talk to this ‘speed’ within me. I don’t know from where is originates and where it goes. But it exists I very well know. I do also see it in others. Its like this unknown figure that takes over any action one undertakes. And it comes with a very intrinsic objective of “not wanting to be missed out”. This speed is very deep rooted… from wherever.. but I find the huge need to break out of this.

Again solutions are easily spoken or talked about.. but very very difficult to bring it into action. So even if I promise myself and tell myself that I will be starting to write more often… I first have to start getting over all the above-mentioned hurdles. If I get over them, I will automatically start writing, because that is what brings me closest to my Eudaimonia.

Have you identified your Eudaimonia , and the blocks to reaching it?



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